Worrisome dreams

For the past several days I have had an anxious feeling about me.  It's a nervous feeling like butterflies in my stomach.  Maybe that's why I have been having restless dreams.

I had two dreams last night; one left me unsettled because it was sad.  It reminded me of times in my young teens when I would wake up in the middle of the night in a panic.  I would think I was alone, maybe abandoned, and I would run through the house in a state short of hysteria and turn on all the lights to make sure someone else was there with me.  

 

My first dream last night was within a dream with the same feeling, but a little different.  I dreamed I was dreaming I was at my parents' house and I had that same feeling of panic.  But this time the panic was more specific; I was looking for my mother.  I was crying and calling for her over and over.  I remember running into the kitchen and turning on the light and saying, "Mama, please be in here cooking,"  and she wasn't. Then I went room to room saying similar things and calling for her and crying.  In the outer dream my husband was trying to wake me up because I was crying out loud in my sleep.  I don't know if i was really crying out loud or not, he didn't say anything about it this morning.

The other dream I had last night was a recurring dream theme for me.  I had a huge house but my family only lived in a few small rooms.  There was big unfinished family room with a fireplace that we never used.  It still had contractor's white paint, no furniture and it was filthy, like we had been storing outdoor furniture or gardening tools in it.  I asked my sister-in-law, the decorator, to help me finish it after the holidays because I was tired of having a room I couldn't even use.

In this same dream my husband came in the room with packages one of us had ordered from Amazon.com.  There was so much stuff in the order!  I realized that I had used my shopping cart as a wish list (like i always do) and forgot to remove the wished for items before the order was placed. So all this stuff that I really didn't want, nor could I afford, was piled in the unused room, adding to the clutter and frustration.

The first dream is a little obvious to me.  It's Christmas and I miss my mother.  I've been struggling with some personal things, and she is not here to tell me it will all work out.  That's what mother's do best, make you believe everything will be alright.  I guess these things that have been subconsciously making me anxious have come to a point where I just need her to tell me not to worry.

 

The second dream is just plain aggravating.  The houses in my dreams are so fantastic, but I never get to fully enjoy them because of the forgotten rooms.  I read once that the dream of finding extra, unused rooms in your home symbolizes God's blessings you have not yet realized.  If that is true, then what is it in my life that is causing all of the clutter, blocking me from receiving God's blessings?  What needs to be done to clean out the rooms and use them to my benefit and enjoyment?  I wish my mother was here to tell me.