There's something to be said about faith

So here’s the other thing….

Yesterday I mentioned there were two things I wanted to address.  One was the dreams, and I did that already.  The other is a thought I had on my way home Friday night when I stopped to pick up Chinese take-out.  As random thoughts are prone to do, one crossed my mind without logic or warning.  The thought was about faith.  There are different kinds of faith, I thought.  I don’t mean faith as in religions, but faith by the definition of the word.  Faith can be confidence or trust in something or someone, or a belief in something that is unproved.  I realized that my belief in God is strong and undeniable, but my struggles stem from my lack of faith that is defined as trust.  I have a hard time giving it all over to Him and letting go.  I like my life now but would like some things to change for the better.  I know for these things to change, then change is necessary.  I don’t trust change; I have too much of my Daddy in me.  In this way my faith is weak.  I worry too much losing control of the things I have today because of what might happen tomorrow, next week, or next year.

God does move in mysterious ways, doesn’t He?  I’ve mentioned here before that I never hear His voice.  Actually, Friday night at Best Wok I heard it clear but didn’t recognize it.  He revealed Himself to me in response to my thoughts through the Gospel of Matthew passage I listened to in mass today.  In this passage Jesus said:

Mat 6:25  Therefore I say unto you, Take no thought for your life, what ye shall eat, or what ye shall drink; nor yet for your body, what ye shall put on. Is not the life more than meat, and the body than raiment?

Mat 6:26  Behold the fowls of the air: for they sow not, neither do they reap, nor gather into barns; yet your heavenly Father feedeth them. Are ye not much better than they?

Mat 6:27  Which of you by taking thought can add one cubit unto his stature?

Mat 6:28  And why take ye thought for raiment? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow; they toil not, neither do they spin:

Mat 6:29  And yet I say unto you, That even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these.

Mat 6:30  Wherefore, if God so clothe the grass of the field, which today is, and tomorrow is cast into the oven, shall he not much more clothe you, O ye of little faith?

Mat 6:31  Therefore take no thought, saying, What shall we eat? or, What shall we drink? or, Wherewithal shall we be clothed?

Mat 6:32  (For after all these things do the Gentiles seek:) for your heavenly Father knoweth that ye have need of all these things.

Mat 6:33  But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you.

Mat 6:34  Take therefore no thought for the morrow: for the morrow shall take thought for the things of itself. Sufficient unto the day is the evil thereof.

“O Ye of little faith.”  I took that as a direct word from God’s mouth to my ears.  

I understand, too, why I was led to talk about my dreams yesterday instead of the faith issue.  God needed me to wait one more day so I could hear His say on the matter.  It is also ironic, or not, that I helped my husband burn a field yesterday.  The grass that was so vibrant green last summer and an earthen brown this winter is now burned to ashes.  From beneath the ashes new grass will emerge and the vibrancy will return. God will again clothe the grass. I am of His image. If He will take care of the grass, then surely He will take care of me.  Jesus said so. 

My trust isn’t magically changed; faith isn’t a magic trick.  It is a little stronger, though.  I am but a weak human with many obstacles to overcome.  

Lord, thank you for knowing my weaknesses and leading me to your strength when I need it most.